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Hey, good morning. Boom! Hi everybody. Alexis here. I haven't, I haven't actually recorded a lot of videos lately. it's summer and for some reason I find myself going outside a lot. So anyways, I'm back and I am, I want to share with you a, a story yesterday that happened yesterday. I was, I was out and about with my girlfriend, which was amazing. We were at a lake and, we swam and we, rode our bikes and it was actually really nice. And at the end of the day, there's two things that happened. you know, we were in the sun all day, or as a saying I was really active and at the end of the night I felt really exhausted. and I think it was mostly because of the sun because I'm not so crazy about being in the sun all day. we drank a lot of water, which was good.

so there was no physical, problem, but I felt like just like after a long day of activity, I was really tired and I remember feeling tired and starting to get sort of in my head about it. Like, why am I tired? I shouldn't be tired. I should be, I know alert. I should be excited. I should feel great. But instead of feeling like really relaxed and really arrested, I feel tired and I told my girlfriend, I was like, Hey, listen, I don't know, this has nothing to do with you. This is, I just started, I'm starting, I'm starting to ramp down my system. was in need of some, some time, not time alone, but just rest. And, you know, I, first of all, I think it was, it helped her understand why I was like maybe a little withdrawn at that point.

and I'm, I'm, I've become a huge fan of giving people around me that I'm interacting with a heads up. If I'm feeling down or something like saying, Hey, listen, I might not be the, the heart of the party right now because I'm tired anyways. So, so that was good. I told my girlfriend, what was going on and at the same time I started getting again into my head like, why am I, you know, why can't I be why I should be? and if you remember last, last week, I shared a video with you about only your biggest weaknesses and this was, this was, has been a really pivotal sort of, moment for me when I realized that, hey, the problem with struggling with a weakness, let's say depression is not the problem, is not the depression, but it's the struggle with it.

Right? if you remember, and if you gave up the struggle and instead did something else, my theory or my practice actually my practice as far as if I give up the struggle, the internal like butting of heads, if I give that up, I can actually have, I will have the energy to, to actually overcome and solve the problem at hand. and so, in that regard, I was, I was feeling tired yesterday and I was getting upset about myself and like my self esteem really started to drop because I felt like I should be behaving some some way differently or I felt like I wasn't good enough. Right. the classic self esteem. So then I remembered in that moment I was like, I remember that if I, I could, I could choose to accept that not only that was a tired, but also that I have struggled with a self esteem issues, which have a lot of background.

And, and I was like, yeah, instead of fighting me already feeling bad. So the problem is always, you know, you feel bad about something and then you beat yourself up on top of that, that you feel bad. Right. That's the, that's, that's what I'm getting at. And I thought to myself in the more, once we got home and we, we were in quiet space, I was like, yeah man, you have been suffering from low self esteem for a while and it's really, really getting it down and there's good reasons for it too. So I started like looking at how I felt from a different angle instead of like punishing myself for feeling this way. I was like, yeah man, you've had a rough time. there was some, there was some has been quite a few not so great things happening in my life and a lot of uncertainty.

And so, so this is, this is the, the message basically. if you struggle with a weakness of yours that, you know, you didn't choose to, you didn't choose to be weakened. Probably some area of my life I didn't choose to become depressed or, feel low self esteem. So, you know, life happens. And I want you to start sort of taking a step back when that happens, when, when your inner inner monologue started kicking in, I want you to consider even just consider that you could accept yourself this way. and I think it will, it will, will ease the pain of, of suffering by not struggling against the suffering. so thank you so much. This is all I got. I think, we can conclude here, really appreciate it and, I hope I'm looking forward to seeing you soon again. Thank you. Bye. Bye.